The Impending Day and Optimism

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Today I awoke at the crack of 9 am. I hated the fact I had to wake up so early this morning just to call and cancel a few job interviews. (unemployment is a balancing act) But what I hated even more was the fact that somehow 9 am had become "early" to me. After coffee was brewed and business was done for the day (about 10) I faced a new challenge, what to do for the rest of the day? I certainly have plenty I should be doing, but it was only 10am and I could probably sleep for a bit longer. I resisted the temptation to take a nap, and decided that if someone is going to take the time to follow my blog, i should probably write in it. So here we are...




Many people say I am a pessimistic and fault finding person. While I agree with the latter i don't think that necessarily makes me a "pessimistic" person. for instance, if you are walking down the street and walk around a giant hole in the ground, rather than walk straight into it expecting the best possible outcome, does that make you a pessimist? If so, i submit it means that being an optimist is nothing more than being  a foolish jackass. I find this holds true to many aspects in life including waking up to get an early start hiking around a hole in the street the size of the damn grand canyon.


This is where the irritating optimists like to pop into the the conversation uninvited, like Clippy that damned paper clip from Microsoft word that never knew when to shut the hell up. They come leaping out at you saying things like "why don't you learn to enjoy the hike?". Well Clippy/Optimist, its because you aren't looking at the facts, you idealistic twit. If I were waking up each morning to hike the actual grand canyon i would be up at sunrise every morning eagerly awaiting the day. The thing is, this metaphorical grand canyon is not THE Grand Canyon, just a giant obstacle to get around known as bureaucracy. So it sounds a little different when you say something like "Why don't you try to enjoy jumping through hoops and red tape?"  Sort of like optimism is a little naive. My day isnt complete until I have hiked my ass around two bureaucracies, big ones. I have the pleasure of dealing with college and unemployment.
 Dont get me wrong these are choices I have made. I enjoy college and one day hope that I will not be living in a box on the street because of it. however, for every credit hour I take, I spend at least two hours waiting in lines, filling out applications, forking out money I don't have, appealing grades etc, etc, etc. Because of the time consuming nature of dealing with this bureaucracy I have found that by dealing with a second, it is easier to deal with, which brings us to unemployment. It saves me lots of time, but costs me a lot of money as well as whatever self respect I had. Anyway, earlier i said unemployment is a balancing act. It is just that. In order to keep unemployment checks rolling in every Tuesday about noon, 2 very important things have to happen. 1. you have to apply for jobs 2. you cant be offered/take any jobs. Essentially the sadists pay you to continually toss the game and take a dive, time after time. Staying in school depends on it. This sort of thing can wear on your motivation and self respect (if there was any left) which makes it harder to get up and be productive, yet ironically easier to be unemployed.
My impending day has now begun and will be met without foolish ideals or as others call it "optimism" it will be met with the realistic expectation that if i get up and deal with the hike, eventually the hike will end and maybe I will have some fun along the way. Suck it optimists.